These are my thoughts, how I feel; just about everyday.

I'm lost on the inside, I feel as if I have no one.
My heart feels empty, I hurt all inside.
When I speak it feels as if no one listens as if I'm not there.
Do I exist?
Am I alive?
Am I an alien?
Who am I?
Do you love me?
Cause I love you.
I don't feel your love within my heart, I feel completely empty.
What did I do?
Did I do something wrong?
Who am I?
Can you please tell me?
Cause I dunno, I dunno who I am anymore.
I'm lost; can't you see, that I'm hurting inside.
I'm hurting deeply, like I can't breathe anymore.
Hurting deeply within my heart, as if my heart never existed.
As if, as if my heart was never meant for this, meant for this thing called "love."
Am I here?
Do you see me?
Cause I see you.
Am I just a ghost, a silent whisper; do I exist?
Do I exist within you?
Who am I?
I thought you loved me?
I don't feel your love.
You never show it; never really did.
I'm all shaky, I need to cry; but it's hard, hard to cry.
I need someone to hold me, someone to need me, I feel as if, as if you don't need me; as if no one needs me.
Can I call you mine?
Who am I?
Who are you?
I shake as I write this; my heart shakes within me.
Do you love me?
Do you care?
Hey you; yeah you, do you care?
Who am I?
I dunno, I dunno who I am.
Am I a ghost?
Am I a broken piece of glass?
I feel; I feel as if I'm a broken piece of glass.
Or, am I water?
Water that nobody sees; at the bottom of the ocean?
Am I lovable?
Am touchable?
Am I kissable?
Am I rare; someone that's hard to find?

I can't eat; can't sleep.
It's hard to think.
My mind feels empty.
This is the first time in a long while, that words popped within my head.
I feel so lonely.
Is anyone there?
Is anyone out there, at all?
Anyone with care?
Anyone wanna love me?
My mind finally thinks, just for a brief moment to write all of this.
I feel as if I have no heart.
Do I?
I wonder now.
I gave many my heart.
But the one, the one I fell deeply in love with, continues to break my heart.
Can you hear me?
Please, please tell me you can.
I feel useless; worthless.
I feel weary.
As I think ahead; I forget, I forget some things I wanna say to you.
May I, may I say hi or even hello?
Can you find me?
Can anyone find me?
Should I hide; hide within the grass, maybe a big large tire.
Maybe it'll "accidentally" roll into the ocean; a street?
Who knows?
But, should I; should I hide, does anybody know?
Anyone out there?
Can you find me?
Do you see me; do you see me anywhere?
Should I drown?
Would you notice; you know, if I drown?
Would anybody notice, notice if I drown?
Do you see me?
Can you see me yet?
Am I there; or even over there?
Am I within your mind?
Am I within your heart?
Please, please, answer me.
I'm lost.
I feel empty.
Am I noticeable?
Did you see that?
I kinda did; not sure what it was.
Was it my heart?
I think it fell out.
Do you see it?
Please, please help.
I'm lost.
I can't find my way back.
I can't find myself; who I am, and what I used to be.
I'm lost; I'm lost completely.
Where am I?

Where the **** am I?
I don't see where I am; or, for that matter, I don't see who I am.
What's my name?
I've lost it.
Can you find it; find it please?
Do you hear me; hear me out there?
Anyone?
I feel; I feel as if I'm a wall.
Maybe a shoe?
I dunno, dunno who I am.
Do you; you know, know who I am?
What I used to be?
What's that sound?
Was it me?
Did I fall?
Would you care; you know, if I fell?
Do you hear me out there; anyone?
I feel as if no one does.
As I said from the beginning.
I'm sad; if you haven't noticed.
I am; deeply, deeply deeply sad.
My heart aches; it cries, cries out for help.
Do you care?
Do I care?
I care.
Just not for myself; not for myself anymore.
I feel very useless.
Did you hear that; useless?
Do you care; do you, you know, dare to care?
Can I find myself?
Can you find me?
I'm lost.
Did you not hear me?
I said, "I'm lost."
Would you miss me, if I left?
Would you miss me, if I died?
I have nowhere to go.
The ones I can't live without, I feel as if I don't exist around them.
Besides two; which are my two little nugglet baby boys.
Though one is going on six, I still call him my baby.
The second one is 9 months now.
If I really did something to hurt myself, I'd really feel bad, upset, and would hate myself.
Because, I can't leave my two nugglets behind.
So I'll stay; at least for now, just for them.
As long as I'm able to, I hope for a long time, to watch them grow into Beautifully Handsome young men!
Oh, how much I love them!
Is anybody out there?
Anyone going to read this?

Will you read any of this?
Or, just skim through what I wrote; and not actually read it all and understand what I'm trying to say?
Will anyone understand it?
Does anyone understand me?
I fell once; on ice, when I was about ten years old.
The ones who saw me fall; laughed and didn't ask if I was alright or not.
Days later; at school, home, everywhere I went, no one noticed the big bruise underneath my left eye, nor did they ask what happened.
Do you care?
Maybe I should hide within a box?
As I weep so deeply; no one hears my cries out for help.
I have no one to talk to.
I feel as if I have no friends.
Are you my friend?
Will you be my friend?
Will anyone be my friend?
How about you over there; or you reading this?
Talk to me, please?
I love God; a lot!
It's hard to think anymore; so as you know now it's hard to talk or to even Pray anymore.
Which makes me feel really bad, and makes me feel bad about myself.
As I say"I love you!" It feels as if you don't hear me.
Did you hear me say that "I love you?"
As I sit here and wonder if you love me; I'll always think of you, and every other person around, also loving you.
Is love in your heart?
Or, yours over there?
Did you hear that?
That was me; my heart crashed and shattered into a million pieces.
Will anyone love me?
Do you think anyone will ever truly love me; treat me right, make me feel; make me feel existing, loved, cared for and needed?
I don't feel needed.
All I do; is lay in bed, sad, depressed, with nothing to do.

All I really do; is lay; think, wonder, ponder, which it's all the same thing, really.
Which is getting hard to do; getting hard to think, I mean.
It's hard to sleep; it's hard to do any of the things I once loved, and still do love.
I hope one day; one day that I'll be able to do the things I once loved to do.
The things I once loved; were photography, play sports, watching movies, TV shows, reading, riding my bike, hiking, just fun stuff.
I miss having fun.
I miss you.
Do you miss me?
Make love to me?
I mean, if you love me that is.
After how long we've been together; we still have yet to make love to one another.
We've been together for two years and a couple of months.
May we kiss; you know, like we used to.
Like you mean it; I miss that, a lot.
Do you miss it?
Is this the end?
Will we end?
Would you miss me?
I know I'd miss you.
Please; tell me, would you miss me?
I need to know.
I need to know, would you miss me?
Do you love me?
Would you still love me?
Please; hug me, hug me like you mean it, cause I miss that too.
I miss you; I miss you and how you used to be.
Do you still love me?
Please; tell me or, you'll miss me.
I will go for now; please; just tell me.
Just know that I'll always miss and love you so much with all of my heart.
I really wish I could go on to what I have to say, but I just can't think; can't think anymore.