Killing the Facade

I stood there if only for a minuet
Sweater still pulled down tight
I look so...
Normal, so right
There's a glow to my skin
But that came out of a glass
The smile is still there
But it's plastered on a mask
My eyes can still sparkle
But that's what contacts do
I'm happy and carefree
But that personality is new
I guess I should be thankful,
But truth is; I'm not
Just because I look fine
Doesn't mean I've forgot
There may be no tears in my eyes
No scars to show
No grumbling in my stomach
But if only you could know
No blood stains on the floor
No added fake laughs
No more time spent
Wondering if this will last
No this time it's permanent
It will take over my very-being
But what happens in this bathroom
No one will ever be seeing
Here the tears have dried out
The blood turned to glue
Just so no one will ever know
That I have been blue
I glance at the mirror one last time
Nothing has revised
Maybe this is my punishment
To always be someone I despise
Suddenly I comprehend,
I can't stand this shell
How can I look so striking
When the rest of me is in hell
My bones move to a fist
Beating for words unspoken
Now my reflection looks like the rest of me
Simply put; Broken.