Trying... Lying... Crying ... Dying

I tried, I failed, I can't, I'm done
I don't know what to do.
I'm sorry, my sweet friend,
But I have lied to you.

I said that I was doing fine,
I told you all was well.
But in all actualities,
It's all going to hell.

It seems the more I try to quit,
The more I can't let go.
Please tell me you'll forgive me,
And know I love you so.