Your hand encloses on my neck,
But I don't need to breathe
I gave that up long ago
With all my hopes and dreams
Your still as beautiful as you ever were
And selfish all the way through
Your painted smirk, your sugared lies
I'll take it all if it means you give me you.
Your addiction is my secret
Because everyone knows but me
Just how deeply you'd trudge through hell
To take a high you can't even admit you need.
Bleeding, bruising, broken
Not even my reflection can stand me
The fool for love
Who kept fighting for a prize that couldn't be won.
Give my all, give my soul,
And all you do is take
There's only so long you can be selfless
Before you lose yourself
Keep me close but not enough
For me to ever break your walls
Tell me you love me more than life
I love your practiced lies
You know we bring out the very worst
And I would never willingly leave
Not when there's a chance
This could actually be something real
So you take my All and demand more still
And stupidly I still scramble to obey
Then you look at the stranger I've become
A monster of your making
We stand upon a cliff hand in hand
And you offer no words of comfort
You just drop off the edge and calmly watch as I desperately follow.
Ice cold slippery hands pull me under water
I scream for your help but it's you that is stopping me from
Reaching the surface
You watch me callously as I struggle to be free
One hand grips my neck the other
fits above my heart
One that no longer beats
Perhaps this once was real
Because you loosen your hold
You turn your back on me
And it's the most selfless you've ever been.
And as you finally let me go
Your body sinking deep into the abyss
I shoot towards the surface
And take my first breath
