There was a point in my life
Where nothing was worth it anymore
Where I felt as though I was nothing.
I didn't want to breathe
Or even live
I would have been okay with disappearing
Into nothing but air
My soul escaping my body
The ultimate release
I had hoped for.
Things changed when I wasn't alone anymore
But I found love
In the worst of people
& hope
In the best of lies.
It went from me wanting to be nonexistent
To living for someone
Who didn't care half as much
As I did for them.
2 years passed
& then I reevaluated this situation
I realized it wasn't worth it
I ridded myself of the poisonous people
Who were breaking me more
Than I was already broken.
I let those in
Who actually benefited my health
& I benefit theirs
People who actually
Truly
Care about my well being.
There was a time
When I wanted nothing more
Than someone to care
I finally found those people
Who would hurt
If I vanished forever.
I am stronger
Healthier
& clean my longest
Thanks to these beautiful souls
Who kept me alive
When I wanted nothing more than to be dead
Because I already felt dead inside.
I'm here for a reason
A purpose
& so is every human being
On this planet
Good and bad
We deserve life
No matter how unforgiving it is
It has its breaks.
