My eyes swim at every blink,
swollen with emotional rain.
My heart weeps its last drops of red,
crushed by the weight of strain.
Too long frozen in place by indecision,
for a choice with no right direction.
Where my own treasured honesty,
has been returned with well meant deception.
I struggling with the pressure of all feelings,
Except those I am asked to return.
Wondering who is laughing at the dark irony,
Of this distorted reflection for what I yearn -
To have this hole of loneliness,
that threats to consume me from the inside,
be filled with the simple affection,
by someone I could always walk beside.
Instead I tread in the path in shadows,
Of unrequited love from the past.
Chained by the unspeakable burden,
of breaking a heart I thought recast.
The boundary of friends redrawn and re-crossed,
Tattooed with clear explanations,
of why I can believe a man to be good,
while being unmoved by his protestations.
Now I find myself in the role of destroyer,
of this fragile friendship reforged not long ago,
because he refused to take me seriously,
when I told him my answer was "thank you but no".
