Dear past me

Where did I go wrong that I missed the signs where did I go wrong that I never notice the sadness, didn't notice where the sadness came from how could I miss such thing. I would take happiness over anything. I just wish I just noticed the signs I really do wish this cause then I could fix the problem but now I don't see the point in doing it. I miss the past me I miss that beautiful smile of mine, I miss waking up without this ache in my chest what I miss the most was feeling alive. It's just so much I want to say its just not enough, its just not enough. Goodbye. ðŸ˜'