hey i know exactly how u feel it's hard to love who u are, but either u do or u don't and if u don't, u have to live with yourself for the rest of ur life so try to, appreciate who u are and what u have cause it could always be worse, and try a little every day, as time goes on u learn a little about yourself everyday, were always learning its an ongoing process. Hope everything works out well for u. Take care. Tanya