Closure

There's so many things I want to say but I don't know how,
I mean I know the words and all they just won't come out of my mouth.
You really do mean so much to me,
But I feel like we both knew we could never be.
I never lose I either win or I learn,
However deciding to write you this poem was my most concern.
To be honest "us" ending really sucks,
I just wish I didn't have to get my hopes up.
First of all let's be clear I'm not blaming you,
You did what you did because you felt it was the right thing for you to do.
I am not sorry for falling for you but I am sorry I fell for you at the wrong time,
I guess you can say I was crazy for thinking I could make you mine.
I will always cherish the memories we've had,
All of them....from the good to the bad.
I try so hard to not think about you,
Yet at the end of the day that's all I do.
You wanna know something I used to imagine us going out to places,
Both of us having a great time together with smiles on our faces.
But it's time for me to accept reality and what is,
That no matter how much I imagine us together it won't make a difference.
I'm sorry that I couldn't be,
The lucky girl who makes you happy.
I know I would always apologize,
I was being selfish and that's what I just realized.
You deserve someone who you don't mind waking up to and falling asleep next to,
You deserve someone who gives you their all and lets you know it's just for you.
You deserve someone who makes you smile even when you're having a bad day,
You deserve someone who cares for you in every possible way.
You deserve someone who sees the good in you and loves you for what you stand for,
You deserve someone who's worth your time and worth your effort.
Most of all you deserve someone who makes you happy,
Someone who makes you feel like you have butterflies in your tummy.
In my heart you will always have a special place,
A spot that no one could ever replace.
Even though things didn't work out between us doesn't mean our friendship has to end,
At the end of the day I just hope we can still be friends.