Scum of the earth

I don't deserve honesty
I don't deserve truth
I don't deserve love
especially from you.

I don't deserve a home
that shelters me from cold
I don't deserve a family
who will love me when I'm old.

I don't deserve compassion
I don't deserve this life
I don't deserve this back bone
Lord knows i have no spine.

I deserve a cardboard sign that in pen reads "help me"
but i do not deserve the love i would soon enough receive

I deserve to be alone, to be alone in silence
i don't deserve this harmony persistnet tho my violence

I deserve to be the captain on my own sinking ship
not the queen inside your heart, distorting the world in which you live

I act like a tin god, in rule of my own vision
but the tragedy that i see now will go on without permission

I don't deserve to be alive and see the mountains and the oceans
i don't deserve to live this life, and fail in each devotion.

I should have been the one who had gone to war and died
I should be the persecuted, the stoned, the crucified.

My heart is so hollow, and now i know my shame
I don't deserve the honor to whisper your sweet name.