I look at myself in the mirror, hating every inch of me! You come up behind me and I feel your hand on my shoulder, there are tears in your eyes as you turn to leave! I turn around quickly to hold you back and keep you with me, but you're not really there! The one I let slip away always loved me, for every inch of me, saw beauty in all of this, but now he refuses to see me!
And no matter how far I reach out my hand you will not be there, caught in the cross roads of the women I am and the girl I want to be! What changed, you used to want to save me?!
No matter how many tears I cry, all in your name; you still want to chain me up and make me watch you leave!
The eyes that used to be full of love are now dead cold, and the heart that used to love me with unlimited chances is now bone dry! I spoke my mind and now I'm behind the bars of a broken heart and my own mistakes that keep me in a cage without the key that you hold! Shot me or return to me, you hold the key to setting me free, but you always hold the gun that can end me!
You push me out of sight, but you're still in my mind; I want to scream, just forgive me tonight!
I look at the letters I once held to my breast, written to you! I swear I can hear your name in the breeze, coming and going as you again change me! This love was never-dying, at least in my heart, but I cry now when I hear your voice in my ear when I try to sleep! How can something so sweet bite me back so bitterly?! How can the one you love the most suddenly find no reason to speak with you!
I slame my door and leave, everywhere I go I swear you are standing there, at every post and bus stop and every sign!
I stand at the edge of a cliff looking down! I throw my voice across the landscape, your name mouthed! From my hands the letters tumble down, I want to give them a propare send off, one we never had! I feel the pages slip from my fingers, I will never forget the day you stamped a black knot over your heart against me!
It feels like a dream the day you get down on one knee, it feels even more of a dream when I hear the words, "Will you marry me?"! I dream of the evening you say "I Do" and as the sun sets you dance with me! When we find out our child is on the way I thank God for this dream come true, to be having this life with you! I fall off the bed and wake up to the cruel world I thought was only in my past! Full of heartbreak and someone special walking out! I sit back on my bed just to cry away the hours of the rest of my life! You were only a dream, only a dream all along!
I look at myself in the mirror, hating every inch of me! You come up behind me and startle me! Joy I have never felt before finally floods me in every part of this broken body of mine! All I can think "Is he's finally here! I feel your hand on my shoulder, there are tears in your eyes as you turn to leave! I turn around quickly to hold you back and keep you with me, but you're not really there! Just what I wanted to see, just when I wished you were here the most! Memories rush back to me of every plan and everything you ever said to me! All the joy you bring! The one I let slip away always loved me, for every inch of me, saw beauty in all of this, but now he refuses to see me!
