Poisoned zombie soul

~ I have picked my poison
Now I'm choking for air
Knowing that no one out there
Ever truly cares
All of the heartfelt cries for help
Receiving nothing but fake smiles
The scars on my arm
Slowly begin to resurface
I don't think I have to many more miles.
~ I tried to save the best for last
But I lost my soul along the path
I am no longer human yet not quite dead
Dieing is no longer a burden I dread
Still I walk amongst the living
Even tho my heart no longer thrives
I am so sorry I saved the best for last
I knew I should have said "f**k it!" and tried
And maybe this is why my heart still glows
Way deep down inside
You are the only possible reason
That it could remain to survive
It is a piece I saved just for you
Hoping that someday you would come out of the blue.
But till that day my soul will stay true
Black as the night and unnecessarily cruel.