Bipolar

Living on 3 hrs sleep, awaking feeling like you could take on the world, no feeling of weakness, just the feeling of wanting to fly, talking so quickly that your mouth becomes dry, having so many thoughts, ideas concepts running through my mind, the thrill of spending money, setting unrealistic time frames, driving erratically, life is amazing people looking at you like your freak. The depression,hitting rock bottom sleeping for 12hrs a day, hiding away in darkness no-where to be seen for days, emotions arise from the darkness, numb, worthless, not knowing when it's going to end, the thoughts of taking your own life, taking a blade and slicing across your wrist, the feeling of not being scared anymore, having no control, going into a rage, looking at what you have done, feeling so numb no pain, just silence