Anxious feeling of going to see the Physchatrist? The questions she will ask, can I give her the answers? Waiting all day knowing I have so much to tell her where do i start what do I say? The emotional and mental pain I'm in the urge of wanting to take the blade and slice myself open just to feel numb to escape this feeling, do I tell her this? Do I tell her about the anxiety and the feeling of wanting to give up or not being able to sleep??Do I tell her my mind won't stop some days that the voices comes and goes??? Do I tell her I make myself sick after every time I eat?? That I hate my reflection?? That I hate myself my life?? I have the answers for these questions but I know I will freeze when I see her?? Is this medication working?? Who am I?? Who would I be without my medication?? Do I really want to know??
