Darkness surrounds me, I'm cold, I'm lonely, I'm scared
I scream and only my echo responds
I look up and I see the sun mark your days, and the moon brightens your nights.
The smile on your face when everything is going right pushes you farther from me but your simply just living your life
With time I lost all hope
All I could do was pray, for your sun to be covered up by the clouds,
for your moon to diminish its light, and for your smile to be turned upside down
Only then would you acknowledge me
Only then would you remember that girl you locked away in your well of love to drown in her own tears
And then you will bring me up to surface, giving me the chance to finally breath, to inhale your scent, your essence, the only oxygen that I need to sustain my beating heart
A chance to feel the heat from your body warm me like the rays of the sun, and your kisses taking away my prolonged thirst for you
The feeling of you inside me satisfies my hunger, nourishes me back to health, makes me feel loved, needed, desired, complete
Soon enough, the well seems to fade from my memory I start to forget the pain, the suffering, the torture, the loneliness, the darkness in my life, and I forgive you as if it never existed
My life finally has purpose
But what exactly is that purpose?
I begin to explore, as if searching for a religion, so many options
Everything seems right to a certain extent, but nothing a 100 percent
I reach the end of my spiritual quest, and my eyes are opened
All along I've been your fool, your prisoner of love, your substitute for whatever goes wrong in your life, for the people that hurt you, for the emotions towards others that have been neglected or rejected
I am your diary where you spill things that bother or concern you, where you share your plans for a future that I have no place in
I am your last resort, your side plate, plan B, C, or when all else fails
You give me the title of the character I am to play, either your wife, your girlfriend, your lover, your friend, your partner in crime, your shadow, acquaintance, or just simply a stranger, and like a soldier I obey
I allow myself to get lost in my character, afraid of the consequence of failure, afraid of being replaced, afraid of you no longer needing me, afraid of the inevitable... losing you once again
Slowly, you drain the blood from my body, and as I begin to weaken you begin to live again
The clouds are removed from the sky one by one,
Your sun begins to mark your days again
Your moon brightens your nights with the stolen sparkle from my eyes
You return me back to your well, I try to fight you, cry for help, run away but my life is depleted
I look at your face and your smile reassures me that my time has ended and life for me resumes in the pit of my darkest nightmare
My heart beats to you, love blinds me
I choose to stay and except my reality
This well has become my home, the only place I belong the only hope I have to one day be a part of your life again
I will continue to be your spectator, waiting for the day you come and rescue me
Taking the chance that that day may never come...
