Fragile Strength

You play off my insecurities
To get what you want
You know what to say or do
For me to give into you

You build me up
Just to let me fall
I always feel like
I am nothing at all

Don't say you love me,
Don't say you will be there
Because I already know
That you don't really care!

I may be crazy
I may be dumb
But even I know
I am under your thumb

I'm sick of being your puppet
You choose my every move
I am cutting the strings
And releasing myself from you

I'm not going to lie
I am scared and weak
But even my internal prison
Is more comforting to me

I hate what I allowed myself to become
I hate what I allowed you to do
I hate that I don't love me
I hate that I don't hate you

I never thought I'd ever be
So comfortable in this place again
The darkness of my past seeping through
I can't believe I ever trusted you!

I am worthless and pathetic
I am lost and fragile
I am empty and numb
I am nobody at all

You know what you did
And I hope you see
I am this way again
because of you, not me

So when you look into my eyes
And see nothing at all
Remember what you used to see
Everything that used to be me

I will now forever roam
this empty road of hell
I have retreated back inside
Silent torture I know oh so well

I don't think I will ever scream
Or try to claw my way out
Because in here I am alone
And that's all I will ever allow

This is the sentence
I will have to endure
For allowing myself to be
A prisoner of yours

So I hope you are happy
I hope you feel free
Because you took everything,
Every single good part of me