Mum you let him take everything away from me, I have a feeling you knew he was raping me but you drank so much that you'd pass out he would come into my room while you were asleep and lay in my bed, he would put his hand over my mouth and whisper in my ear I would start to sob as I knew what he was about to do, he controlled my life and took everything away from me made me feel pain, pain that I never thought existed, told me that no one would ever believe the words I spoke, I turned to the blade it became my escape, it took me to a place where no one could come in, I blame myself for what you done to me i go over it in my head, telling myself I could of done something, beating myself up putting myself down, listening to the voices in my head, but I was so scared just an innocent girl living my life in fear not knowing when you would pray on me next, I would hide but you always found me I was your little girl, you were my dad and you ended up being the monster in my life that I fear the most
