A Standing Heart

by Poet on the Piano   Apr 19, 2014


Walking in, shoulders hunched,
head facing the ground,
I searched the air for whispers
of your presence.

The candles were extinguished,
the choir exited without further music,
and a cool darkness swept over this
church where we give praise.

I waited, for hours,
teaching myself how to breathe again
in slow, steady breaths.
Why did I come to you before
without trying?
Without repenting?
I had let the motions take me under
as each Sunday became more shameful
and less hopeful.

Tonight, I closed my eyes,
blocking out all others restlessly
waiting before me.
And when you called me through
that door, I was acknowledged as
cherished by you.

I took my time, I spoke the truth
of my stained heart, I opened up
and was listened to.
Telling the most serious thoughts
on my mind was terrifying,
but I could not keep acting like
I was unaffected by life.
I needed to start making peace.
Concern filled the room and I could
finally utter reasons why I've done
what I've done... why I feel I can't
come to you so broken.
And it was in acknowledging those
broken parts we all have within us,
that made the difference.

You cleansed me.

Easter had been heavy on my mind
yet now I know I can embrace you,
truly rejoice that I can reach out,
that you are my heavenly father
no matter what words have scarred
me from earthly matter.

I pulled out into the night,
releasing the burdens,
letting the tears twist and dance
out of the barriers of my heart.

We are never truly alone
on this earth, are we God?

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Written 4/18/14
This past year I've tried to be a lot more honest in my poetry.... I felt very moved by a powerful moment, I had to write those emotions and reactions out.

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  • 10 years ago

    by JesusFreakAuthor

    Wow wonderful

  • 10 years ago

    by Baby Rainbow

    I just love the honesty in this poem, I think it describes that painful place where we feel unworthy of anybody's love, or forgiveness, and so to ask God for it, seems impossible. It is like a cycle, because only by being honest with yourself, and accepting the truth, telling the truth and trusting God with it, can you truly begin to feel better.

    I love how much emotion this poem holds, and how it is based only on that moment, only on this one topic and yet expresses so much. Although it was very from the heart, it was also filled with great words and metaphors, and held an interest for just a passion for religion. For something to hold onto, and to not give up on, be scared of, or hide from.

    I love your title, and how it is standing, yet in the poem you use stained. I just find the two so connecting, because even though your heart has been stained, it is still standing and that is why it is so strong.

    Brilliant poem.
    Well done

  • 10 years ago

    by LoneWolf

    I've definetly felt something like this before