Missing you crazy

Everyday I think to my self why couldn't I be the girl I am now to her before I answer because the girl I was back than didn't understand love , relationship and all but now that I see all the mistakes and heart ache I put her through just breaks my heart every day saying why how could I be so evil what came over me to become the devil I was once was but now I've learn from those mistakes and karma has taught me a valuable lesson and from that I am not that person no more I am new and improve but it's to late to show the new me to her well to late in her eyes now that I'm older I realize and learn the value of love and how it's a wonderfulg gift and blessing to have and to share but now I have no one to give my improve love to I've tried and I've tried but I just got hurt my every Who I thought that liked me but I was wrong and for that I felt I was ugly and nobody will ever want me or love me and that's when you always cross my mind she will always and be the only girl who ever loved me and found me beautiful. When I didn't but I lost her for good every day I pray I get her back I ask god and my dad In heaven what can I do to get her back I'll do anything I beg and plea but my wish and prayer never got answered I never stop thinking of you everyday I go to bed early so I can dream about you longer and hold you close to me longer till I wake up I know you don't love me and find me disgusting and ugly or what ever just know you will always and for ever be my Wubbie I rather be single if I can't have you back no girl comes close to you I've tried looking for another you but it's impossible your one of kind the only kind that suits me I really do miss you and forever love you and I will never stop loving you just the thought of you makes me smile like the first time we met wish there was a way I can have you back love you always moo moo 1-7-08 you will forever be the one I let get away and I'll will never forgive myself because in my heart I know you are the one for me