Never Hurt This Badly Before

My heart broke
My spirits sank
Everything I thought was true was turned into a lie
The future I held all my hopes for was turned upside down
And the man I thought was my prince charming was running the other way

When he told me what you said the night before
My whole heart shattered into a million
Trillion
Zillion pieces
That could never be repaired

One of your closest friends
Tells me you said we were never together
Just yesterday
And the breath literally escapes me
And I can't breathe

I feel a pain that never came out this strongly before
And I know I will never move on
Or trust again after all these lies
I run to the bathroom
But can't lose the hurt behind me

And I feel sick to my stomach it cuts so deep
The blood runs out so bad
After every memory of you and me
Every feeling you ever made me feel
And every thought of future i ever had about us us us

The digger cut right through me
And my whole life crashes down before me
I feel myself heat up like when I'm sick
And for the first time I have ever hurt this badly
I feel my life become nothing but lost wishes and faded dreams

He is one of your closest friends and I love you more then anything
And he told me that when you and him hung out last night
You told him we have never been together
You told me you talked to him about me
But you didn't

Now I make a plan in my head
To end it all
Nothing else to live for
Nothing else I want
Nothing else I wanted but you forever

I wonder if you ever loved me
If you ever wanted me
If you were ever gonna move here to be with me
I wonder if you'll deny it next time we talk
Or just end it

Both cut me deep
The plans we made to get married
The date I set I knew you'd like
The smile on your face I couldn't wait to remove, And the I do's
Followed by a honeymoon we would never forget!

But all I know is no fiber of me
For the first time
Wants to hold on
No small part saying don't give up
No motivation from you to keep going

I thought yesterday went great
One of the best days with you
I was so happy, happier then I had ever been
But now you're gone
And I wonder, is this the end, and did you lead me along all along