Even When We're Apart

Even though you're so far away I can still feel you close to me and your warmth in my heart and the sweet feelings you make me have running through me and that is when the separation doesn't hurt so much or sting so bad some days, because I know one day we'll be together and it will all be worth it, all the sacrifices, all the delays, all the lonely nights and all the fights were we were both too hurt to admit we just wanted to be hugged by the one we love and be together!

Even when I miss you, or the distance starts to get to me, and I just wish I could show you how much I love you and how sweet on you I am and how much I want to be with you for life and be able to tell you to your face how much you inspire me and how much I love you and love being with you and how much you have helped me and because you are the only one who has ever helped me and I want more then anything to be by your side wherever that leads us, near you no matter where here decides to go, as long as you are willing for me to wait until I'm ready to go so then and only then we can start our life together and I look at myself in the mirror and I hate every little thing that I see but I can close my eyes and open them pretending you are there in the mirror beside me, with your hand on my shoulder and you telling me or whispering to me that I am beautiful and that you wouldn't change a thing about me and your arms around me holding me tight like I have always dreamed of and I know that I will to be together!

Even when it hurts that you are so far away and it's torture to be apart, I can still feel you near and I know I am loved by a wonderful man who will treat me right and hold me without and ifs or buts and will want to hold me tight just as badly as I want him to and one day we will have all the every hand hold and every finger through hair and every kiss and every hug and every touch and every head on lap and every holding each other and every good night and good morning and every chance to look into your eyes, every movie to fall asleep to on the couch, every time I feel your hands on my sides, every time we hug, every time i can hear your voice, every time you say my name, every time you sing to me, every time we are together, enjoying each other's presense and so on and so forth, that we want! What I want more then anything, what I want with every cell inside of me, and every beat of my heart within me, and so badly words can not comprehend and overwhelming happy at the thought, is of you and I getting married, a seel between us that nothing in heaven or earth can penetrate, neither break, and I think about that when I really long for you here, or when I'm upset, and those thoughts are the thoughts that have kept me hear, because even though you are so many hundreds of miles away from me, I can still feel you here with me, a deep joy and gladness, happiness that absorbs in itself throughout me and makes me feel whole and that's how I know everything will be alright, because even though we aren't together yet, one day we will be and when we are I will no longer be without you again and you will no longer be without me again and we will feeling come together!, Because all I know is that you're the best thing that ever happened to me and I will fight for you until the day I die and I would do ANYTHING to marry you and to be your wife! and as hard as living without him is now I know that one day we will be together and it will all be worth it when we come together!

*forever and always, until death do us apart, because I love you my husband with every fiber of me and the best thing ever will be when we're together! *