Alternatate ending of realization ...

I realize all the things I'll miss most about you
And I'm not ready to go
And I never shall be

Your smile
The sound of your laugh
The way the corners of your mouth turn up

Your eyes
The color of blue they are just so
The way you look at me with them

The sound of your voice
The sweet feelings that come over me when you sing to me
The joy I get when you speak

When you talk to me
How happy you always made me
How good wanting each other forever felt

I think about all the things I miss about you
Why it kills me so badly to think the us is gone
I beg every hope inside of me to say it's not so

All the plans we had
All the promises we made
Everything there was to look forward to

The love I felt for you
The power our love had
The strength it gave both of us to get through anything

The way you always made me feel
The heart you healed
Having the best time of my life with you, that was no dream, but real

The way you say you love me
The way you cheer me up
The way I can't stay mad at you

But I also realize sadly
The tale was all fake that I grew to know
And Nothing can fix this

Your love was not really there
Never did you really care
All false were the promises you'd seen be here

All that I believed in you
How highly I thought of you
The treasured you made me think I was

To my prince charming
To my angel who gave me wings
Maybe this means nothing to you

I don't know because you won't tell me otherwise
But you will always be the one who is too good to be true
In my eyes

So as I remove the blade from my dresser
Hatred in my veins
An unhealable broken heart inside

I look down at my wrists
Uncut for so long
I remember the promise I made to you
That kept me so incheck
But now I realize what you really meant
What I really meant to you
And I'm not afraid to die
Just afraid to live without you

I press the blade against my veins
Taking a deep breath
I smile to myself
Knowing it will relief the pain
Even if it's only for one second
One moment without missing you
Bleeding inside for you

As the cut widens
Deepens
I spell out your name
Tears come down my face
But you're not there to wipe them away
You're not there to stop them

Part of me wishes i never knew
But maybe I was meant to
I guess Joey was telling the truth
Bye sKyler
I hope you know I love you