With these shaking, lonely hands,
I bleed with ink onto the page.
I'm suffocated and trapped,
Inside the cool bars of your cage.
This strangle hold you keep me in,
Is a sickening comfort I loathe I need.
The bars are shut but remained unlocked,
You smirk knowing I can't let myself free.
My self disgust is endless,
I hate the weakness you invoke.
So many words I need to say,
But they claw at my throat and I choke.
You don't want to face your monster,
Happy to discard me like a broken toy,
I can't let go of the man that destroyed me
Because I'm still in love with the boy.
I pretend you don't affect me,
That I'm moving full steam ahead,
But the truth of the matter is I'm locked in place,
Frozen in the past instead.
I want to escape this madness,
I wish I could rewrite the past,
And when you offered your hand to me,
I would have turned and run away fast.
So endlessly I'll live this lie
And you can keep on spinning yours,
Well circle each other, predator and prey,
And I'll lick my wounded sores.
With these shaking, lonely hands,
I bleed my truth onto this page,
I'll love you hatefully always now,
As you leave me to rot inside your cage.
