My Pain

My pain is Visible yet Invisible
You need only look deep in my eyes to see the invisible scars, wounds, and loss.
For me trust is very difficult for fear of a knife in my back
Very few even have a glimpse of my other side
Very few know my true self
Very few I trust with my darkest secrets
With me I am a turtle a hard ass shell with a very vulnerable underside
I am protective of those I call friends,
'cause I know all to well the bite of a knife and the burn of a lie.
I know I'll get stabbed I'm always prepared for the dagger,
I will soon know the pain of a needle,
I know the sting of a slap and the throb of a punch.
I know more than I should
I know this
But I don't care
I am to worried about other peoples problems to worry about my own, after all their problems are more important than mine, and thats fine with me.
I just don't care anymore, I welcome the pain at least then I can feel something.