What Did I Just Do?

What did I just do?
Did I really just lose her?
Did my burning candle
just blow out?

Is that door really shut?
Is It really Locked?
Is there another key,
Or am I forever left out in the cold?

I know why I did it.
I know why I pushed her away.
But it doesn't mean I don't Hate it
It doesn't mean I don't regret it.

I made my bed
now I must lay in it.
I made my mistake
now I have to live with it

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(To my... Well To someone means Alot to me. )