It's like she just disappeared
But I see her everywhere I go
I never thought her leaving
Would leave such a big hole
Her smile was infectious
Her eyes so kind
Someone with so much compassion
And a great mind
She always put others
Above her own needs
So alone at night
Her arms would bleed
But she kept it together
Even when it was falling apart
A true survivor
With the biggest heart
I didn't think this could happen
But since she's been gone
I'm just not sure
That I can keep going on
I'm sad all the time
And I just want to cry
Begging and pleading
Keep asking why
My mind is always negative
I lay there awake at night
Wondering if I will ever
Begin to see a light
Everything I once loved is gone
I just can't seem to care
And I can't help but cry
Because I feel no one is there
I can't pull myself out
Of this hole deep in the ground
And I'm tired of being lonely
Thinking I'm the reason no one is around
I wish she were here to help me
But sadly she is not
However only I remember her
Everyone else has forgot
I always avoid the mirror
Scared I will see her face
Because it saddens me so
What has taken her place
Sometimes I think she'll never come back
But I need her here
I wonder if I imagine it
But sometimes I feel her near
I need her to resurface
But she got swept away by the wave
To my demons and depression
She became a slave
They destroyed her
And I'm afraid she died
Now living in her place
Just feels like one big lie
How could I have been so blind
How could I have not done anything
I stood by as they tore her down
Now sadness is all it will bring
I miss her so much
This is not who I want to be
But it's my fault she left,
So I will always miss me.
