It sounds like an abusive relationship. He will probably steal your wings if keep him in your life.

I've been in a relationship like that many times, old poems of it. Anything w.chad, I loved him the most. We never met but I moved on and I'm stronger. It was very hard on me, I wasn't the same (feelings of wanting to pass out/depression/and such)& I never was. He will never know all the things I went through. We spoke for several months, made plans for the future. Like getting married in Hawaii. He met someone else, has 2-3 kids w.her. There not married but I could tell he loves her very much, so what about me. I know deep down he'll always love me. I just couldn't make it there. Sometimes I would wonder how I made it through. I loved him very much. I was 16. I am 19 now. But I'm here and I'm okay. I was crazy about him...give it time, darling.