Blue Skies

There's no one to speak
No one to speak for us

No one to speak of our love

Buried in deep sadness and loneliness
Because all you did was lie to me and use me

No more relationships
Please
Please...

I am so damaged
I don't feel the same and
I know I don't look the same

Through all my hurt and tears for you

I've already lost 7 pounds
I cannot sleep at night
I go to bed in the morning
I assume its off my mind

Worthless is how you make me feel
And stupid

When I saw your status
"What a sad day"
Something happened
I too, became sad

Because I won't know what made you sad
And if your gonna be without me
Atleast try to be happy

It would hurt me to see you with someone else
But that's because I saw a future with you in it
'Til were both old

But atleast I know you are moving on
Maybe you can inspire me

I dream and wonder
If you'll ever feel terrible about what you've done to me
If you already have
Or suffer

The true pain hasn't even started
Its when and if we finally say goodbye
And I know were gonna be without eachother
In other people's else's life

I loved you so much
And I
Everlastingly will

I wish I could take a heart shaped pill
And have it drift me to sleep
When I'm ready to drift
Away...

What blue skies,
Today

Written: 9.12.14 Fri. 8:15am