One last call

I want to get this right, tell you how I feel but what if it turns out to be the worst. Contemplating, pacing and repeating the words to say to you. I want to start of by saying forgive me, for the fact I cannot stop loving you, I know you hate me, I know I hurt you and annoy you. Everywhere you look I'm always there, it makes you so mad but you have the sweetest heart that forgives. I tasted the love your heart gave to me but now you are engaged, sometimes I wonder if there is any hope for me. Don't get married to him, I know you love him for the wrong reasons, you don't love him but your friends forced you to. I missed those chances you gave to me, you kept coming back but I keep going blind not to see you loved me. 10:45, I should probably call before you switch you phone off. Had your number on speed dial, I was too late just because I was scared. One last call became more lonely nights, I wonder if you ever think about me.