I Wish

Do I fit
Fit into your heart
Did I make the oh so longing cut
A spark in your heart

Did Cupid hit?
So I wonder, so I ask

I did!
...I didn't
So just in your mind, when you want me.
It is now I am reminded of all I felt for you
Just the other day
Just before you stopped talking to me

You can't see the beautiful heart in me
Because her face is your destiny
And I light up when I see you
But after midnight I fall to pieces

Feeling like a big load of sh.. when you walk me home
Tryng to hide it and keep it in
You don't bother to kiss me when our night is over
And what about our "last time" together as you say, where you avoided your lips on mine

I was so afraid
That I might not see you again
Then I told myself I would and I did

When you fell asleep
I giggled at your legs
They were positioned so cute
Then I cried..

What more can I do
Sex is the only time I get to be with you

What is wrong with me
Why do I like him so much
Why do I carry feelings for you
When you treat me like ....

I can love you more than her
Don't ever text or call me again
Because you won't get a response
And that's not the end of it all

Suffer her withdrawal
When she is gone because for another man
She falls
I never thought about it until now but I wish I could take her place, for a day

I wish I could see what my boyfriend does while away
I hope you know you f'ed up this time
I hope I don't pretend to forget what you did
To my head & lost it all through my heart

And I never will
But I can & will forgive

I wish I could run right through you
So you could feel the big bruised up heart in me
And see that I'm special too.
Maybe more than her

My love.

Written: In S.A.
Dedicated To: S.B.B