So much to live for, so much to see.
i wanna see my wife and kids get old with me.
but these times when I'm down and no ones around.
i feel like i could let it all go and just die without a sound.
i pick up the blade, just like back then.
back when i was more positive and hoped this would end.
but my fears are real and these nightmares seem true.
I'm alone and I'm scared and i don't know what to do.
but then i see my wife's smile and hear my kids play
and that just frightens of more darker days
because it feels like this will never end and its going to be the same
no matter how much time passes, I'll always be the be the one to blame.
