F.I.N.E (2014)

F - Freaked out, I'm going out of my mind
Everything seems messed up, f'd up
I can't deal with waking up anymore
I'm shaking, I'm terrified
I'm calling out your name and you don't hear me
I wake up in the middle of the night, sweating
"It was just another nightmare"
Until I realize I've been awake the entire time

I - I'm insecure, I'm disgusted in myself
I've never felt so worthless in my entire life
I feel like there's nothing left
You don't want me anymore
And all I ever wanted was you
My insecurities will eat me alive
As they come to life, and they're drowning me
I can't look in the mirror, because you won't be there with me

N - Neurotic, I'm unstable, I'm going crazy
Never thought I'd wind up like this
I've been pulling my hair and clawing at my skin
Fighting the urges to take the drive into the night
And not make it out alive
You're the only one that can put me to ease
To calm my mind
Dear God, come back to me, I can't do this anymore

E - Emotionally, physically, mentally broken
Scarred, ripped apart, I've fallen to pieces
I'm crying out to you, I can't stop crying at all
I'm overwhelmed with love and loathe
I loathe myself, but my God, I love you
And you've begun to hate me right back
I don't ever see myself smiling again
This is what's becoming of me

But yes, I'm fine.