I'm so not okay,
The words I've screamed
At the walls
Like maybe the words
Would sink in
And take away my pain
But yet it still remains
The source of the pain
Is the also my happiness
I love him dearly
But I can't continue on
This path of self destruction
Because its hurting you now as well
And for that I am eternally sorry
But I am not okay
I haven't been for awhile
So how can you sit there
Yelling at me for finding a friend
Speaking to someone that isn't you
I talk to him
Purely because he answers me
He actually talks to me
You said its hard right now
Your phone broke
I understand but
Do I not mean enough
For you to go and buy another
Who am I meant to speak to
If I can not speak to him
When and only when you
Decide to talk to me properly
That is when I will back off
But I need a friend right now
Because we aren't friends
