I like the emotion behind the poem, but I feel you can better the sentence construction, like in para 2 line 2 "The more I stop death here comes strife" doesn't make much sense to me instead you could try writing " Every time I stop death, flows in more strife" or " In this battle against death, my life's reduced to strife".

May I ask why fighting the demons is wrong? I think we all have demons. Personal to us, yes, and though I have no idea about your situation and can't possibly understand, I think it's worth it in the end to fight the demons. Even if we are bruised and torn up and flat out tired.

Keep hope, keep striving. And I know that may sound cliche and silly coming from a stranger, but hopefully writing this out can help release emotions or help sort through thoughts. I know writing can help me feel less alone or like I'm not as trapped with thoughts. I admire that you can share this and be vulnerable in a poem, as some people may not want to write about their troubles or admit anything. This is admitting the pain and desperation.

Keep writing and hope things look up.