My Monster

I trip over these hopeless thoughts
Inside something is very amiss
A tangle of pain makes its way through me
Like some sort of cancerous cyst

I can't save me from myself
(Will relief come to me tonight?)
I no longer try to figure it all out
I have no energy left to fight

The same pattern repeats
The tears never fall
I watch the stranger staring back
It's not me at all

Alone, so damn alone
(What have I become?)
I am a soulless monster
With nothing and no one

These eyes are not mine
(Why can't I feel my heartbeat?)
My skin is like stone
(Where are my feet?)

Panic tightening my throat
Something is very amiss
The reflection staring back
I can no longer resist