Silence

Silence is in the air,
As I walk through the halls each day,
Trying to hide my secret,
But not able to find a way.
You tell me to be more social,
You know I'm not okay,
But the memories still haunt me,
From everything that happened that day.
You pull away and with draw,
I cringe back in hurt and fear,
Whispers in the hallways,
Most I wish I didn't have to hear.
The silence between us won't go away,
And I avoid your glance as I walk by,
Knowing that nothing will be alright,
Trying to stay away from you so I won't cry.
You say it's for my protection,
But it's not me it's you right?
I didn't want this to happen,
I didn't come here to fight.
The silence is deafening,
Being lonely in a room with a crowd,
Everyone thinks I'm doing just fine,
Everyone says they are proud.
But they don't know the things that haunt me,
The nightmares that await me each night,
Screaming out and breaking the silence,
My senses kick in, and I take flight.
Now; as I sit here alone,
The silence is weighing me down,
My lungs are screaming for air,
But I still continue to drown.