You took honesty and added such vulnerability to it. You took my feelings and worded them beautifully. Thanks for speaking out, for saying the things no one else dares.

Excuse me for this short comment and just copy pasting the bits I can especially relate to, but I dont have much words to say.

I never ask for anything, take all the no's.
respect their space. I make myself highly available, bend my schedule backwards. Forget my needs. But I am still too needy,
I never listen. Take things too personal, get offended easily.

Don"t use someone else's pain so
I forget of my own. Stop trying to invalidate my journey.

I am trying. I never meant to be ungrateful, but I am tired.
everyday of my life I am tired.
Keeping myself alive is the hardest thing ever.

and i am doing it

Everyday
Everyday

^ Agree, completely. The honesty and vulnerability is what I appreciate so much in poetry and even though I can never fully understand your situation as this is your story, and your unique voice, the connection can be made that we all have faults and struggle with them. How we approach them. How we keep trying and learning how to do more than survive. How we go about the process of healing. Forgiving others and ourselves.

A personal, touching write. Thanks for sharing, Yaki!