I want to be happy, joyful
peaceful. want to live a life
of greatness. But
I always end up angry, bitter,
tired, resentful.
I hate gossip.
It reminds of being 14. Of losing great friendships.
of restless nights. When i hear people gossip,
It makes me hate life deeply. When i catch myself at
it i want to bite into a hammer, shower in holy
water, break my own arms.
my family won't stop gossiping.
my mother talks other people's life
like it could improve her own.
my cousin uses it in attempts
to make all her sins look small.
the neighbores come at 7 am , come
at 12 pm. come to my mother's house, all day, everyday
and gossip.
and gossip.
and gossip.
This makes me want to punch throats
makes me feel mediocre and unlucky
to be born in the middle of this
Kills me, frustrates me.
it won't ever change
everyday I am dying
of shame. I am dying.
cruel, cold, bitter.
I am dying.
