Stronger me

Trying to become a stronger me
Giving up things that comfort me
Reforming to society
It's so difficult to see
With all the memories coming back
Memories of pleasure and pain
These thoughts are suffocating my brain
Some would cherish such thoughts
I however do not
Wishing to go back in time
Changing the things on my mind
Unable to take them away
They are forever here to stay
Wondering if words could make a difference
Or is it all a result of actions
Wishing to blow these thoughts away
The same way I did most days
Through the smoke leaving my lungs
Like Sublime and Marley songs I've sung
Making everything drift away
This is not how I'll deal today
It's long past due to find another path
Never did I feel the urge to conform for others
Nor do I now
I make this change for a stronger me
With no choice but to succeed