Shadow of My Past

What life is this that treated me
In ways unjust and most unfair,
Leaving me alone and broken,
None I possess to love and care.

No hope nor prayers can ever bring back
The love that I once did boast,
I am now but a desolate soul
I have lost the ones I loved the most.

Who knows what grief dwells within
Or the pangs of solitude my heart has borne,
Not a shade of distress I reveal
I laugh with all but weep alone.

Long is my grief, short is my joy,
Days are dreary; once so full of bliss
Now maddening silence all around,
Lord, wherefore you gave a life like this?

No love is pure nor friendship true
A lesson well learned at last,
I am no more the person I used to be
I'm just a shadow of my past.