Why I don't understand..

Why I don't understand the things I do in my life
It seems I keep doing what's wrong and not what's right
I sit and stress myself out with the thoughts that I'm thinking
Washing away all my stress and anger with drinks that I'm drinking
A man is suppose to take charge and take care of his home
Why is it in my castle I don't even own the throne
Why I don't understand

Why i don't understand I can't succeed
God knows I do right with others when they are in need
Why am I the one that's here to bleed
I wake up everyday looking at my reflection
I could only see why I am not given any affection
I am a failure to those who depend on me
I am blind to those that can see
Why I don't understand

Why I don't understand why everyone hates this soul of mine
I should controlled everything but yet I fell behind
People talk about me and stab me on my back
Saying that I'm worthless you don't need him he's not worth jack
I don't even feel comfortable to be here on my own
I guess now my emotions have no place to call home
But I smile and put everyone first
Even though I am the one that's being treated worse
Why I don't understand

Why I don't understand I had a plan
I was on a special mission in life to be the perfect man
God please help I don't understand
Show me, guide me, I reach to you please take my hand
I lay alone at night aside the bed crying
Why am I here, why is this worth trying
Then I look across and see the angel next to me
And go to the next room and see the other two sleeping sweet as can be
I tell God I understand why I am given the chances I had
Not only to be a better man
But to be a perfect dad
Why now I understand...

By Joe Davila Jr.