Invisible

by Jenni Marie   Feb 5, 2015


Shadows engulf as invisible
voices mumble-aromas pull forth
forgotten memories of times long
past; where they didn't cause
instant shakes, clammy fingers
nor heartbeats rising faster than
an angry pacific.

The belly talks, for once I'm
listening -because you're
poison, nothing more than
a demon covered with
transparent wings...and I
wont let you have me.

Too long I've been listening,
believing you know what's best,
that you had my best interests
at heart when in reality...

{All you ever wanted
to do was kill me.}

But no...
no, I repeat I wont let you
have me nor will I let you
have her...oh you're screaming
and kicking, fighting, trying to
claw your way back in...I feel
you every second...but you
wont take her, and you'll
never take me.

{I wont let you.}

Too weak for so long to fight
back, to regain control, to be
strong enough to drown your
voice from our heads...

We knew somewhere how to
swim, but couldn't see the surface,
didn't know which way was the
right way up.

It's true you almost drowned us,
suffocated us- but your claws are
slowly losing grip and I wont allow
you to drag us further down

-ever. again.

No,
I wont let you have her;
I wont let you have me.

{We will beat you.}

*Recovering with my best friend from anorexia.

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  • 9 years ago

    by Sunshine

    This is very full of force and yet full of fragility and weakness.
    Your opening line was smart and beautiful, I was guessing how sad or how creative or how simple this poem will turn out to be.

    I love the parts you highlighted and they were mutually unique as the rest of the poem.

    Most of your poems are heartfelt and do reflect your personality and the kind of person you are, and I do like how I can see you in your poems and do believe every word. It makes the poem closer to the reader and makes them crave for more.

    The fact that you used your own struggle to come up with something beautiful and come up with this poem and all its beautiful word choice is very brave, and although in different circumstances but I can relate to your bravery in writing about something so painful and so personal for the public readers.

    You've done a very beautiful job, very raw and honest and I just love the power in your closing verses and lines and the belief you do have in yourself and in your friend.

    Well done :)

  • 9 years ago

    by Poet on the Piano

    Powerful beyond words! The parts in the brackets especially moved me, it's like that inner monologue coming to life, knowing this has harmed you and your friend and you are worth more than its hold on you.

    A very emotional, heartfelt write <3

  • 9 years ago

    by IdTakeABulletForYou

    A beautifully documented struggle. Sometimes, pain can produce wonderful art, such as this; take pride in your recovery, for you are eternally stronger than that which tried to bring you down.

    Thank you for sharing.
    5/5
    IdTakeABulletForYou

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