Still In My Head

You're doing it again-causing me
to push away those closest to me
causing me to scream yell. shout,
trying to cut them off..telling me

how they wont ever understand,
how their words are nothing
but lies...how I'll never be
good enough for them...

or anyone...

{I'm never good enough}

You're mumbling your poison
in my head once more and I'm
wondering why they are still here
-why they are still by my side

{when all I ever hear is how
I disappoint everyone}

You're forcing me to push them
away, ones I'd die for without
a second thought- because you're
convincing me they don't understand us

Even when I'm fighting you body and
soul, you're still able to mumble in my
head, plague me with doubts- like
no-one else ever could.

I don't want you anymore,
please Ana...

let me go.

*Overcoming anorexia.