With you was amazing
My mind was flying in the sky
Words had meaning and set in
My hearing selective and booted the negative
My heart always loving because there was no time to hate
Empathetic to everyone's pain
Even if we come from other worlds
Enthusiastic about art of any form
Willing to learn about anything
You took me further into my music
Deeper into my heart
My feelings for everything changed
I learned to love and forget hate
You made life easier
I could walk away from the negative and embrace the positive
Year one
You were gone for one day and I thought it was easy
Day two was not a problem
I did get an urge
Yet I didn't realize that our departure would lead to this dirge of my soul
As I reach a week without you
I grew happy
Still far from impressed
I kept myself in solitude
Away from my friends
What they did brought me to you
You and I could be no more
Weeks get weird as nights make me scared
The eyes in the dark are watching
I was never prepared
I felt the constricting grips of the shadow numbing my limbs
My body parallelized as my eyes are closed but I still stare
This is no dream
I try to scream
My voice will not work
I know that now
I fight to the real world and make my way out
I knew this feeling before
Long ago
I payed it no mind then
Now this feeling was amplified
My nightmares transcended to terrors as year one began
Apex predator
Attack when I sleep
I wake up and try not to weep
You were my friend
I see what you are now
A demon who strikes when you are not needed
Months into year one
My dreams cypher around
From bad to worse
Worse to tolerable
Good sometimes
Until the zombies came
Every night for weeks straight
The dreams felt real
The zombies attack
Eating my flesh
I adapted and learned
Dream after dream
My love died slowly in the other realm
My hate for you grew
Here and there
The zombies die
I don't feel scared
I kill what's already dead
I love it
I scream in joy
We play a game of hide and go seek
I master my dreams and wake on command
I choose to stay and kill more
Enjoying my consequence free paradise
And maybe to you reading
A paradox
It makes sense to me
You made me a monster
Months into year one
The shadow returns
Gripping and ripping
I scream but its muffled
I accept death by your hands
I cant fight anymore
A deep breath is taken
I wake up and run
In the central park side at three in the morning
I jog to kick start my insomnia
I remain sleepless for a week and then I rest
That's when I awake to the hag on my chest
Screaming in anger
"Go away or I will kill you"
I don't scream for help but the power to kill
I want you dead
I won't let you go
I swear I'll kill you
and then you will know
True fear
I wake up and the hag goes away
I'm so happy that the fable was real
I try to go back to sleep to see her again
I'll rip off her head and drink her soul
I was not scared
Almost happy
Fear left my body and I wanted to kill
You were my friend
Now you are my enemy
Year one was rough
More to it than what is written
The shadow man watches
But I'm not alone
