This pain that never ceases

This affliction that never ceased to an end.
The mistakes that I've committed in the past that I can't mend.
Lodged me with a tranquil life that came to drown deep in the waters.
This misery I suffer from that I can't cogitate its detailed corners.
Gave me a life filled with loathe, the mere reflection rapture.
I try to wash away the negativity I've inflicted upon myself.
But failed to maintain the air I breath to remain sublime.
I lived a life thinking I could keep up with my lies keeping me at my prime.
The thought of it makes me feel foolish and gullible inside.
I took the wrong step that brought me to my demise.
Sleepless nights tormented and haunted by agony.
The philosophy of my time is based on nothing euphoric but pain throughout my days.
I'm living with it till the day arrives I be buried in the depths of the earth which would be my grave.