Pleading to God

Outstanding me likie...
its wonderful AND amazing

First off, I want to say that I am sorry for your loss. I have never had someone whom I loved so dearly commit suicide before, so I can't even imagine what you are going through. Truthfully, I don't even want to experience that pain.

Secondly, I don't think you should be blaming yourself for these incidents. I know that it is not a very comforting statement, and is probably one that you have already heard countless times. However, I will say it too because I think that its true.

Here is why:

When someone commits suicide, they do not always think about the loved ones they leave behind. I am not saying that this is the truth for all of them, but for some I know. I know this, because I have had some experience with suicide, even though I might not have ever attempted to commit the act itself; my experience is with the thinking part. I don't know how many times I have thought about killing myself in the past. When I went through this time, I never thought about my family or my loved ones. I just wanted the pain to stop. I wanted it to stop so bad. Your loved ones might also have been this way; they probably did not even think it through when they were doing this, they probably did not even think that you would be in so much pain once they were gone.

Even though some people might see suicide as the coward's way out, I think that it is more of an act of desperation; it is the final act, the one they come to when there is no other way in their minds.

You seem to torture yourself over this quite a bit, and I am sorry. If they really loved you, like you loved them, they would not want you to live like this thinking that you are the one to blame. You did not drive them to kill themselves, unless you were there dictating the whole thing, which from talking to you, I am sure that you were not. They would want you to live for them, I think.

I hope this helps, even though it might be the stupidest comment that you have ever read. I hope it provides some comfort in some way. I am sorry I can't be of much help to you, but these are my thoughts. I hope you pay attention to them.

Mori Chan :'(
Don't say that....it will soon be all good for you...after the dark night, the sun rises again..always...no matter how much anyone tries to prevent it from rising...it will rise....just like how much ever anyone tries to make you sad, you're life misery....you will be happy and your life will soon turn out to be awesome...

Don't say that...
And don't be sad...

It will all be very good again....it will all be good... My good luck is gleaming..and so will all my friends....i share my good luck with people :)