Ignore me please

I'm bathing in
My dizzy depression.
Looking back at
My reflection.
Wishing I had
A following succession.
Passing through the crowds
Without detection.
Grabbing onto threads of time
That are not really mine.
All the things I've thrown away
Are the things that distract me day after day.

Isn't there a way?

To ignore the world I don't want to see,
To not be the way the world wants me to be.
See the reality of it all,
And believe it's only small.
To laugh when all are crying.
To cry when all are smiling.
To smile without a frown.
Be deaf to all the sound
From the chaos all around.

Isn't there a way?

If there is I'd like to know.
If not, then I hope my time is not slow.
If none of these things could ever be,
Then ignore me please.
Because I don't want to see.