Defeated

Another long chapter finalized,
With an unsatisfying end,
Wedges sit in the breaks,
With no means to mend.

Left to stir, in disconnection,
Slowly absorbing my reality,
Suffering from a lack of control,
In stabilizing my mentality.

The vast space, now a void,
Fills with pain and sorrow,
Another sleepless night ahead,
Drifting into a cold tomorrow.

Whispers scream, "you're broken,"
Suffocating in bitter defeat,
Mustering the strength to stand,
Rather than cower and retreat.

Soon before me is another day;
The start of a new chapter,
How do I face my choices-
The consequences of laughter?

I can only give a broken smile,
Weighed down by damage,
Now alone with my depression,
Unsure of how to manage.