I feel your pain, write on friend.

I really like this poem, it is sad but the I really love the layout and how it controls the reader, the first i've read from you and I like it :)

If you don't mind a little critque....

"On my hand is a pen" - Change "On" to "In" here it will read better.

And my only other critque would be to say that for some readers/writers having a Capital Letter At the Begining Of Each Line can be distracting when reading, if you limit it to names of people and places and after a full stop/period it might help - obviously this is upto you just a suggestion :))