Silently I Cry For You...

I wander through this land
Of broken promises and dreams
Clouded by the death of you
Wondering what life means

My colourless existence
In a world of black and grey
Reflects the person I've become
And who I am today

Without you in my life
I seem to have no life at all
No one here to guide me
Or to catch me when I fall

I almost hear you breathing
I almost feel you near
I almost feel your touch
Sometimes it's almost like you're here

This jigsaw puzzle of my life
Has pieces I can't find
For half of me went with you
Leaving half of me behind

I feel so cold and lonely
So battered and so bruised
I feel so insecure right now
Tortured and confused

My life is like an open book
Written but unread
Thoughts I never told you
Words I never said

The voice of hidden truth, I know
Will never now be spoken
Though time may heal my scars
I know my hearts forever broken

Silently I cry for you
Silently I pray
For silence is the loudest spoken word
I never say

I can't escape the darkness
I've come to know so well
While you are free in heaven
I still reside in hell

And here I will remain
Until the day my life is through
Until the day God takes my hand
And leads me back to you..